busy busy..

missed wirting for several days..Oct 19-21 went normally busy. 22nd i had the pre-op coz i'm gonna have surgery on my left shoulder, the diagnosis? left shoulder impingement with calcific tendonitis and the procedures to be done are arthroscopic subacromial decompression (wish i got that right..) and debridement of labral tear, that was yesterday the 30th..IV insertion was painful, the nurse that administered it said that it really hurts more when inserted on the hand than it is on the arm which unfortunately can't be done in my case since my right arm has to be bent, (my orthopedist, Dr. Yasgur must have me lying on my right side while operating on my left shoulder), then the anaesthesiologist would inject me on my neck to block the nerves leading to the shoulder the doc's gonna work on, THAT scared me more, but i didn't really knew anythin' bout it because they knocked me out with PROPOFOL, (same stuff that knocked Michael Jackson dead..) which was injected through the IV and tell you what..it was sooooo freakin painful made me almost scream, which i did contemplate to do but decided not to, so as not to embarrass myself, you feel it goin through the vain, feels like rippin it, good it only lasted for a couple of seconds and then i'm out, next thing i knew it was all over and done, didn't remember anythin bout the surgery, felt like i was out just a couple of minutes but it was actually a good 5 hours. now i'm on a sling and havin a hard time, using only one arm, it so hard to do the usual stuffs without the luxury of using both. and the meds i need to take oh i hate them they make me nauseous and drowsy.

needles, needles..i hate being poked with it in any part of my body. to most people it's just nothing, to me it's terrorizing..kaya everytime injection has to be given i get so scared. kakahiya..!!